A monster finally found me...... DEBTS!!!!!!!
Woke up early cause yesterday slept really early around 8+....Like again same as any other day..... report back to camp @ 0730... My chief commented "Wah! Yip why today u so early? U always late wat?" I was like ... NO!! I only late twice (in two mth)and it is due to traffic... What always... Why don't she comment that I'm always early ... as early as 0715.... Why human always like to look @ the dark side?
Recently, there is this campain for the ex-convicts.. "Yellow ribbon project"... It is a project to tell people to give the ex-convict one more chances. To treat them as any normal human.. But human have been the same since this place is named "Earth".... Human love to look @ the darker side of people. All the wrong doing... Mistakes..error.... However, when someone does a good and nice things ... the person at most only say things and then after never mention about it. But the bad things they will always remember and bring it up over and over again....
Finally, It seems all things of my past slapped back @ me.. I felt the intense that I cant hold back longer or sit on it any longer.... That is my debt... I know my past was terrible with heavy debts .. but I wanted to start a new life..hence during NS i tried not to borrow(coz it is a new chapt to my life) .. however I cant seems to settle my past debts .. so there was a period i decided to sit on it... but it seems the longer i sit on it.. the seat gets hotter and now burning... I have a total of 4 debtors and own up to close to 8K. Not mentioning other misc debt ard 200 bucks... Today, all 3 out of 4 debtors come after me through email, call, sms.... I really felt cant breath... It as though they are now strangling me ...... HOW? I think i really have to try to give tuition or something to settle my debt... I have no choice to moonlighting.... In a situation like this.... I have to do somethings to settle.... and not sit on it furture... hence I can come out of this ASAP and lead a new life and move on. I feel that this matter is really hindering me with God.. I just feel that this is the things is really hurting my mentally and spiritually.... I have to get out of this...
"God please help me!!! Make a way for me"
Recently, there is this campain for the ex-convicts.. "Yellow ribbon project"... It is a project to tell people to give the ex-convict one more chances. To treat them as any normal human.. But human have been the same since this place is named "Earth".... Human love to look @ the darker side of people. All the wrong doing... Mistakes..error.... However, when someone does a good and nice things ... the person at most only say things and then after never mention about it. But the bad things they will always remember and bring it up over and over again....
Finally, It seems all things of my past slapped back @ me.. I felt the intense that I cant hold back longer or sit on it any longer.... That is my debt... I know my past was terrible with heavy debts .. but I wanted to start a new life..hence during NS i tried not to borrow(coz it is a new chapt to my life) .. however I cant seems to settle my past debts .. so there was a period i decided to sit on it... but it seems the longer i sit on it.. the seat gets hotter and now burning... I have a total of 4 debtors and own up to close to 8K. Not mentioning other misc debt ard 200 bucks... Today, all 3 out of 4 debtors come after me through email, call, sms.... I really felt cant breath... It as though they are now strangling me ...... HOW? I think i really have to try to give tuition or something to settle my debt... I have no choice to moonlighting.... In a situation like this.... I have to do somethings to settle.... and not sit on it furture... hence I can come out of this ASAP and lead a new life and move on. I feel that this matter is really hindering me with God.. I just feel that this is the things is really hurting my mentally and spiritually.... I have to get out of this...
"God please help me!!! Make a way for me"
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