Mind Of A Sourcer

Thursday, May 26, 2005

just another busy day

Today.. just another busy day.... busy with graphics and ammendments.... so many ammendments... just get it.. why the scholars cant just decided on a standard so dun need to change and change... Argh!!! cant stand it....

Friday, May 06, 2005

Changes for the better

Here I am online... Where u must be think?(maybe u dun) I'm now at Pacific Cafe @ Marine Parade... Why ? Coz I supposed to meet Ryan but he is with his family @ his brother's passing out parade because his brother complete his trade course as a Guardsman..

Well, now maybe a good chance for me to ponder on some stuff after I have spoken to a person whom I really admire. He have been in Christ for 8-10 years. Been through a lot ... the highs and the lows.... some are the real extreme.... My spiritual big brother....

He some how got to know things that happened in my camp and he had a talk with me during one of the lunch and somehow gave me a dress-down (loving one.. not hard) to enlighten me... All along I thought I was right with what I was doing.. What u may ask?? that is I murmur too much, trying to compare to achieve the best and many times I trying to please people and in the end I hurt people...

Many times I do the wrong things in the process of murmur. I don't strike a win-win suituation. I must come out with restitution to restore the friendship that I have sore. I really hope to have friends in camp and not enemy when I ORD.

My Prayer:
Lord! I come before you with broken and helpless.. Lord! I do not want to fight the war with my own strength. My flesh are weak but the enemy is strong. Give me wisedom as I handle my relationships and whatever come out of my mouth is praises and good works with sincerity. God, give me a loving hearth to love people more fervently. Let my presence be a good company to them that they are able to feel your presence through me. Lord! I pray that as I make restitutions and forgiveness from them, they will be open and accept me. Lord! Times maybe diffcult but u are alwaays with me like u are with david when he was on the run from Saul. Lord! help me to be like David even though Saul was after his life.. He din say bad things about Saul. He rely on your strength. Let your praises be in my mouth everytimes though times are bad. I give thanks for a friends and spiritual brothers and sisters beside me.
I pray this in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ,
Amen!

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Bored?

I really dun noe wat to say for this post.. felt like posting a post so that people still noe that I'm still alive...

I just felt kind of vexed or in chinese "fan"... Quite affected by some relationship problems (which some of you may noe....) and work..... There is so much work to do and my two of my team members are being post out...

fiancially also not doing quite well... my mum just quitted her day job.. hence lesser income of coming to a $1k ... but I support my mum quitting her day job coz she is really have been putting up with unhappiness for about 2-3 years before she comes to a decision of quitting.

My prayer:
God... I just pray that u will open the doors of oppotunity for my mum and wisdom in managing the finance of the family... Father I pray that u will give my family a financial breakthrough. Father I also pray that you will give me wisdom and peace as I handle my relationship problems and my work. Lord! I pray that whatever I do Lord ... I will do it heartly unto u. Ur name will be praise in mouth in all suituations. Lord! I thank u for putting into trials and crisis times so that my faith,capacities and abilities are stretch to a next higher level. Though times are tough but Lord! I will stay with you forever. Coz you have said in your words that "U will be with me till the ends of the earth".
Lord! give me a heart of desire to know u more and to serve u in all my life. Use me and mould to the plan u have for me. Father, do not let the fire in me quench but burn even more strong for u day by day. Send forth ur holy spirit to guide me and let your presence be felt where ever i go. I do not want to feel tired. Let me be in your presence always so that I could be recharge for I do not battle againest flesh and blood but in the spirit. Lord, I pray guide me that whatever I do I will not grive the holy spirit. Let me move in the Holy Spirit... Let me hear Him and give me a willing heart Lord. I will step out in faith and break the fear.
I pray all this in the name of my Lord Jesus Christ,
Amen!

Monday, May 02, 2005

Blog =x= Privacy

Read this from my friend's blog and I find pretty true....

"...I read this article over the last weekend. A Singapore President Scholar pursuing a degree in America was begin investigated by Singapore authorities for posting some racist comments on his online journal after some people send a complaint letter to PSC department about it......And my immediate reaction was, WHAT THE FUCK?!?! People trying to complain about others on what they post online? Helloz! The net is free for all. There's no rule stating we CANNOT do anything we want to? There's not law and order in Cyberspace! Whatever we post online is our prerogative. No one has the right to dictate what we can or cannot do. If for some reasons a netizen was not happy about it, he can just leave the website and never return. But why make a huge fuss about such things! The most he can do is just to post a comment about it in his blog. why take it up personally all the way to defame someone. Besides, this online journnal was constructed to let people like us to share our daily lives and thoughts to those interested to know. And at any point of time, if that netizen does not like what he/she sees, they can choose to leave. Like when they stumble upon a pornographic website, if they like it they'll stay. If not, they'll leave. But do they complain to authorities about the websites? Do they make a big fuss about it? And what's the difference between a porno website and our blogs?......You might say because he's a PSC scholar! So? Isn't he a human too? Is he prefect? Was any human being prefect for that matter? Everyone has flaws, and it so happened that his is that he doesn't like other races, for this matter. So? What's the big idea? Oh, ya, cause he originates from a multicultural, multireligious society, hence, as a PSC scholar, he must not present any resentment against other races. Then is it his fault again? For him to become a PSC scholar? Who chosen him to be one? He merely applied for it. But who is the one who approves his application without asking him, under oath, whether is he or is he not a racist? Anyway, was there a fine print for the scholarship that racist are not allowed? I mean no one can blame him for his racist entries in his blog. he has all the rights to do it! It's his voice! His freedom of speech! And just because some people or minorities were not comfortable with it, they go all out to slam him. How crude and petty are those people! Did they even bother to sympathize him? Did anyone ever bothered to step into his shoes and ask why he hate other races so much? What were all those racist comments about? What spiked him to write them? Did any of those who complaint did those thinking?......A blog or online journal is a place where one will type his emotions, his opinions, his life. The idea is not to make everyone agree with him, or support him. But he merely does so because he like to, whether or not anyone is reading them. He doesn't care if you stay in his blog to read every post. He doesn't know who you are unless you make yourself known. Neither will he chase after you with a gun if you commented in his blog. I believe if anyone were to comment on things the blogger has made in his entry, he is more then happy to hear them, be it good or bad. At least we know someone out there read our blog and cared to leave a note or opinion. Thus, A blog becomes a platform where everyone from all corners of the earth comes together to share their feelings, thoughts and opinions on a topic, be it the blogger's life, the blogger's comments or what he entered. But a blog can never be used as an evidence for others to complain on the blogger's entries, his personality and his likes or dislikes. For this is definitely NOT what an online journal was invented to do. Should I curse and criticise a nation's premier, do I get caught and thrown into a cell? Should I insult someone over my blog, do I get sued in the courtroom tomorrow about it? If it isn;t so, why do this poor Singaporean student have to apologise publicly to those he voiced out against? Doesn't he has the right to do such things? Have we ever complaint to any foreign diplomats about such stuffs? Isn't it absurd that we are hearing such stuffs? Where are our human rights?......But at this point, I do not glorify racists, or terrorist or any matter. But my point is, such comments were ment to be personal. Somethings we enter into our personal space in cyber, called as an online journal. For whom the targetted audience we do not care. But must people who already "intrude" our personal spaces still "provoke" us using our personal stuffs which never ment to be theirs? I really ponder what kind of signal had such a matter sent out to the community out there. Has blogging got to become more"tactful" and be in favour of the majority views and social norms? Or will blogging remains as it is now, people with their own views blooging their own style and manner. Billions of netizens with billions of different views, entries, thoughts, emotions and opinions? What is the future of online journals? Will it ever be regulated like cigarettes in Singapore, like heroin in the world, like terrorist in US? Are each and everyone of us becoming potential offenders, over the internet?......I really don't understand what people are thinking nowadays. Really. But my stand here is, an online journal is our prerogative. No one has a say in what we say. Definitely no one!......Think about it, Netizens!... ""