BOMB DROPPED!!!

Today... woke up.... went to IMM with Ryan to meet Shanmin and the guys to buy food for the BBQ in the evening after cellgroup... After that, went over to Matt hse to prepare the food.. Had cell group .... Had the shortest cell group ever....

After that.... we have BBQ.... some where to the end of the BBQ ... Shanmin gather us.... and told us that our Cell group is gonna disband ... It meants that we are gonna go different cell groups.... MAN!!!! WHY!!! I miss the guys..... Playing and going together.., I also saw Andrew cry for the 1st time in my whole two years plus together with him.... and Elijah my disciple and rest like Kenneth... Haiz.....

How the new cell group can be as close as W118.... set our different apart and understand and love each other....

POC !!

YEAH!!! I pass out from my course liao..hehe....

Finally i finish my course... but IT marks the begin of stress... Going back to unit tmr.... Got to do stocktake..... The problem is ... I'm the only storeman..... Haiz... Anyway.... humm... I think need to have some time to settle down.. Been sleeping a lot this days.... In the course I only learnt how to sleep in different position..haha.... anyway..

Got home really early..coz Eddie send me to Lavander as he is on the way to ICAS... So reached home ard 1730hrs... bath and took a nap till 2230 .. woke up and had dinner.. den now... blogging watching downloaded movies...hehe.... Sherk 2.... catch up on wat i missed... bye..

Sabath Day

Today woke up refresh... had a bowl of Maggie.... Hummm..... Maggie is always my favourite..... Anyway..then after get changed and go for service.... Hummm.... walk to the bus stop... Oopss... I supposed to walk to the train station... hence I took I turn back and head to the train station... I thought I could catched the church bus... Man.. i missed the bus.... Quickly change my plan and catch the train to church....

When I came out of the tunnel.... AH!!! It's raining..... On the way... I was praying that God help me to get to church on time... Reached the Boon Lay... I quickly ran to catch the church bus....Due to the rain....traffic at church was quite bad..... anyway... reached church in time... Praise God....

After services, went fellowship with my cell group @ the same old coffeeshop... hehehe.... so fun..haha... den we decided to go out to fellowship longer... we walk to the bus stop discussing.. den to the church discussing while waiting for ShanMin and Andrew.... Den back to bus stop.... still discussing... took the bus den to inter-change...MAN!!! still discussing... we are really people with many thoughts..hahah... Anyway..we den decided to go to Plaza Sing.... haha... We settle down @ Gelere.. for Ice cream.. haha... yumm.. the chocolate overload was great... Anyway.. den we went shopping @ Carefour coz Ryan wanted to buy dinner to cook... hehe... We bought pasta.. Yumm.... My favourite too.... Andrew den suggested to treat the guys dinner... wow .. Andrew is really blessed man... Anyway.. While they go for dinner .. me and Ryan head home to cook our pasta... Yeah!!!!....

At home ..while eating the pasta.. I added lotz..and lotz of cheese... wow... I dun care liao.. with my favourite food around.. I give losing weight a MISS...hahaha

After that.. rest a while ..den came back home...

*Yawnzz...*.. gonna go and sleep... Anway.. tmr during lesson also sleep....

Got some deep thoughts in mind... pondering.... humm... blog more tommorow...

1 more day for my course.... but meants got to go back to unit to do STOCKTAKE!!!! Argh!!!

NEW GUITAR !!!

Alright... Yesterday came back from cell group was quite late hence i din blog....

Yestersday, woke up really late .... ard 4.30 PM..... Den had some noodle ... after went for Cell group... cell group went on as per norm.... After cell group, They wanna celebrate my birthday..... haha.a.. They den give me a wallet... BUT wait.,.. that is matt wallet.... Den after they give me a vase... I was like... ok.... Den Shan min say she bid it from Ebay.. haha... den later she says that actaully It was given by her student....... Den they present the really present.... It is a GUITAR!!!! I was so happy that I cried.... MAN!!!!!.... After that they prayed for me and den we went for fellowship....

I must learn how to play guitar by the end of the year.... Humm.....
Mary had a little lamb ?

test & sleep !!!!!

Today, had test and I scored 35 / 50 ..... MAN!!! I studied yesterday till 3 AM... And I get 35.... some of my coursemate get over 40 with just 2HRS of study..... why?? Haiz..... disappointed......

Anyway, today book out early ard 3.30 PM... went to Plaza Sing to meet Ryan for a movie Ouijo Board.... While waiting for the movie.... We had our dinner @ the foodcourt @ ard 6PM... We had Ramen.... WOW!! It tasted GREAT!! The soup was great and the noodle too... Next time must order again.... Den we went around window shopping @ Plaza Sing..... Man... Movie starts only @ 850PM... We just walk and shop ard ....

Back home @ Ryan place... Felt so cozy.... *Yawn*... So tired... had not have enuf sleep for the past few days.... Gonna catch it.....

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!

Happy birthday to me... Happy birthday to me... Happy birthday to Winston... Happy birthday to me... .... God is blessing me now... God is blessing me now... God is blessing Winston... God is blessing me now....

Woke up with many SMS to wish me happy birthday... hehe... my day went on as usual.... went to Shanmin hse after course.... fix her router problem... I also din noe how i managed to fix it... It seems like all the settings was same as her brother set... but... just some how ... I managed to do it...haha..... God's anointing bah.....

*Yawn* So tired... but got to study for my test.. tmr... If i fail!!! I have to re - course.... NO !!! I cant... Got to study..... bye....

Penny for a thought........

Again went for my course @ STTS... Like any normal day... but today I really sleep alot in class coz only got two lesson to learn and after my instructor are not around... so left us in the class to do wat ever we want... man what else can we do?? Sleep..... At 5pm, my coursemate started to ask my IC to get my Sgt to ask him to let us go back.... Den my MSG kept saying wait... until like dun noe how many calls my IC made den my Sgt let us book out..... A riot almost strike out the STP office.....

I been pondering a lot on another matter.....whether to upgrade my PES status and sign on..... Upgrade? Ppl must be thinking I'm crazy.... Why upgrade when ppl are trying best to "chao keng" to downgrade..... But I really bored and sick of my camp... Nothing to do and everyday doing "sai kang" or called as fatigue duty..... I'm now trained as a Comms supply asst(Storeman) I want to do things related to my job.. Also being in the HQ .... Everyday I just go camp and den book out.... No exercise or Physical training... My aim for my life in NS is to lose weight to least 70 Kg... but at the rate I'm going .... With many tea breaks and sitting in office..... I dun think I can lose any.......rather gain.....

Why sign on?? Simple.... MONEY!!... I see my Sgt ... he sign on and he is drawing a quite a good pay and everyday just teach.... nothing.. And I also need to money..... I felt that I really cant survive on the miserable $350-$400...... With all the payback.. I left with nothing.... Wat should I do??

"God guide me oh lord"

Family tie?

Today woke up early ... had breakfast and after change to go cell group. Today was about faith.... Something that I have been pondering lots this week as I was going through the book. Wont talk on this now......

After CG, I rushed for services... Pst Kong was talking about money... I'm really challenged by wat Pst teached... Immediately after sermon, pst took up the offering... I had made a vow to God that wat ever I received this birthday, 10% will go back to him.. Coz it is through him that I received my blessing. I believe as I put God 1st more... God will bless me back more... Cause he is a father. Whose father wont give to his child.

After Services, went out with the CG for lunch... Den after I and ryan and Ben decided to go out for a walk at city Hall... Along the way, we decided to ask Gary to come along... Hummm.. got so much to catch up... can see that he really adapt to the army life well.... So much interesting story to tell.. While me, nothing coz I'm PES C...so many things i din go through..... (think of upgrade so I can experience wat they are going through)

Ard 10, I reached home... was on my com den suddenly my bro scolded my sis for misplacing his calculator.... But I got pissed.. he was so demanding... It is like when he lost my discman, I never demand from him.. den I quarrelled with him... felt kind of bad..coz he say that I din care about him.. but how about the times when I help him when he got beaten up and whenever his handphone got problem I need to go down to settle for him.. I even got him his 1st handphone.. he din even appriciate me.... He said he dun want this family.. so why he take money from my mum... I really sadden me to see my mum slog like hell to support the family while he lost his handphone and settle his bills and recon his line for him... and he happily just used and never thank my mum and me about it... haiz.... So how much more do I need to scrifice for the family.... Iszzi that till when I die and give my brother my heritence of 30k ...den he can buy wat he wants and he can be happy cause he get wat he wants and lose his brother.... ......

Anyway... tmr I got to go for my course... in my final week... God please bring me through....

If anyone of your is reading... please pray for me...

Prayer List:
1) Peace and joy in my family
2) Fianancial blessing for me and my family....
3) Protection over my family especially my mum as she works hard for the family..
4) Salvation of family (My dad, mum, brother)
5) Health of grandpa
6) Wisdom and knowledge for my brother and sister in their exams and me in course..

God Bless...

Birthday celebration + NEW HP

Yeah...

Today I celebrated my 21st bdae with my family... Got lots of "Ang bao"...... With the money I went to get a new handphone.. Got a panasonic X68 for $88.... Humm.. quite happy with it....... which is also a flip phone..hehe....

Humm... my 1st time celebrate with so many family members... Suddenly they like read my blog or God have moved them... which I believe in the latter.... They showed so much loved on me.... wow....

Din go cell group cause I cant just leave like that cause they party is for me.... so i stayed on... till whole party... Be going for tommorrow cell group @ Cai Luan hse.... Soon going to sleep .... yup....

Night....

Somecares!!!

Hummmm... someone really care....

It is non other than my ITE friend... whom have been also supporting me during my daze @ ITE..... She just responded to my blog...haha...

Btw.. I just add the tag board...so pls put your words for me in there...

Anyway.. why I din blog for so long was because... I was away on course ... My Supply Asst (Comms) @ the Supply Training Wing..... Haiz.. Really been busy.. Waking up @ 5 AM ... reach home dead beat @ 7PM.... had dinner and read a bit of my book... doze off den after.... same routine for one more week......

Bought a book @ the Zion Book store.... "The heavenly man".. really a God's man... gone through lots of suffering and pain just for the gospel in China..speading the word and read the word was really hard to do in China.. He was imprison for 3 times and everytime was beaten and mis-treated... there were times where he was even eletrocuted with a eletrical baton in his mouth... MAn.. that was pain.. but God work miricles.... He even went on fasting for 74 days for the salvation of the people in China in the prison where food and water are scare...

After reading, it really build up my faith.. that God is always there..... Many time, God will move when we are at our wits and strength.. coz it is the time when we put down our pride and our nature thought of solving the problem and start focusing only on God.. God will there to move mightly and mould us and change us.. and we will see his mighty power. Also our faith will stretched.....

"LORD YOU ARE ALWAYS HERE WITH ME"

Tommorow, my family is gonna celebrate my 21st birthday with me... My aunt have arrange it together as a gathering for my family too... Humm... hehe.. not sure wat I'm gonna get as presents...

Hope is a new mobile phone.. coz mine is spoilt.... haiz... Well that leaves till tmr ...where I will find out .... for now...*Yawn* sleep......

21st Birthday

Oh ya... Yesterday the office guys celebrated my birthday.. at least they remember... maybe just another routine that they celebrate... But I inside I really don't felt the joy or happiness... don't ask me why....

Just for the anonymous person who is reading.. my birthday is on the 21 Oct... maybe put a comment to wish me ... or maybe .. dun bother... It anyway don't make much different.... Who cares?

Just another post..............

here I am again... middle in the night ... soon it will dawn..... Today I didn't report back to camp.. because I reported sick.. Been having Migraine for the past 3 days.... argh!!!! Anyway.. been rather moody.. really can't seem to be happy or have fun in anything...

It seems like there is nothing interesting in life.... People around me are busy... or rather I'm too poor and broke to go out... Nothing come cheap or free in this world... The moment I leave the house ... There the money counter starts.... from the bus to everything...

At home ? people are too busy or concern with their personal stuff... Sis = Studying/throwing lady tantrum....... Bro=Playing MY computer/girlfriend.... Mum=Working/house work/sleep... Father=sleeping/sleeping...grandpa=sleeping/cant hear(hearing problem) ..... Sometimes, I really think whether anyone in my family really think or see that I exist... Or I'm just someone that is taking up another few Oz. of air and inch of space..... I wonder.............

Sometimes, I just feel like crying... reason??? I really don't know... There is just a kind of feeling inside... I think is loneliness... I really missed the daze during my secondary school and daze during my BMT... Life was fun.. filled and exciting... I don't need to think wat to do next and I have bunch of great friends around me.... All are around me to cheer me...

I really want to thank my godbro... he is always there for me.. But I guess the attention is limited... Sometimes, I felt that I'm really bothering him... Was talking to a friend yesterday... She ask me am I really bothering his privacy.. and his family.. but he is the only person that I now really can relate to ... A person who is still concern about me.... talking to me constantly and cheering me... Maybe can call me a attention seeker.... but I guess all human wants attention ... but to a certain degree... but for me .. i only have one person to give me the attention....

I really feel that now my life is really a lonely journey... maybe I should continue my OWN journey.... To where? I also don't know... Maybe to a place where i can find peace and love and joy.... Heaven? Maybe.......................

I think my post is to another anonymous that who is interested in another boring life.... Thanks anyway.. at least you bother....

Mind Of A Sourcer

Anyone interested in my life????

Sometimes, all this blogging does anyone read? Or anyone will be interested in my life? Anyway, this is the my means to express my displease and agony and happyiness.

In this new age, technology is so advanced. I guess the only way to express myself is through here.. At least, I know that Mr 'Net' is interested.

days have been simple and routinal... doing the same things the whole week....